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I still have a Dev account???
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Not gonna lie, I forgot about this account a while back, and I thought my stuff would have been deleted by now. But honestly I'm glad that it's still here, I lost a lot of work that I posted here from my old computer, and It's kind of fun to go back and see my skill level from times beyond!
It's been a roller coaster. I graduated College and got my Bachelor's degree in Media Arts and Animation. However, during my time in school my mom passed away, and I learned that I have issues with coping, stress and addiction. I finally went to grief counselling and began working through that. However in the last year I realized that I havn't addressed as many demons as I thought I had, and it came up through learning that I can't react to substances the way 'normal' people can. When I start something to quiet pain, i can't stop it. And it landed me in a lot of legal trouble.
I'm clean from my bullshit now, and am dedicated to recovery. Needless to say, posting artwork hasn't been on the for-front of my mind. However, i'm still drawing, so maybe I'll post some work here to keep things rolling. I'm more active on Instagram these days, and If anybody wants to check out my art and see the shenanigans I get into, you can follow me there, I'm simply 'GayleYeier'.
It's cool and nostalgic to come back and check things out again. I hope things are fine and fair with everyone else!
Go in peace, Ya'll~
It's been a roller coaster. I graduated College and got my Bachelor's degree in Media Arts and Animation. However, during my time in school my mom passed away, and I learned that I have issues with coping, stress and addiction. I finally went to grief counselling and began working through that. However in the last year I realized that I havn't addressed as many demons as I thought I had, and it came up through learning that I can't react to substances the way 'normal' people can. When I start something to quiet pain, i can't stop it. And it landed me in a lot of legal trouble.
I'm clean from my bullshit now, and am dedicated to recovery. Needless to say, posting artwork hasn't been on the for-front of my mind. However, i'm still drawing, so maybe I'll post some work here to keep things rolling. I'm more active on Instagram these days, and If anybody wants to check out my art and see the shenanigans I get into, you can follow me there, I'm simply 'GayleYeier'.
It's cool and nostalgic to come back and check things out again. I hope things are fine and fair with everyone else!
Go in peace, Ya'll~
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Hiccup!
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Hi Guys, Things have been very rough and difficult lately. I'm still going to school and I'm still coming out with pieces of work I want to try and upload as soon as I can. However, I've been very busy since I'm coming up to graduation and I'm looking into going to work full time at the same time. I've also just started therapy for stress and anxiety issues. I've never done this before, so this will be interesting. I'm working on getting sketches and finished pieces together to upload for you. And I have a youtube that I will upload my animations to. I'm not great yet, but I'm working on it!
I'll be back soon, just need to get through this little rough pacth of business and counseling, and I'll get some work for you. For those who are actually reading this and checking in on my page, thank you for your patience!! I love you guys and I'll see you later!
I'll be back soon, just need to get through this little rough pacth of business and counseling, and I'll get some work for you. For those who are actually reading this and checking in on my page, thank you for your patience!! I love you guys and I'll see you later!
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The Composers Paint Series
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Hi everyone, I'm back! I think.
I'm trying to boost my painting and creativity in a more interesting way than classwork, so I'm initiating a paint series I'm calling "The Composers".
I have selected 100 songs by 25 different composers from various games, movies, and personal soundtracks. Each song will have a painting dedicated to it based off of emotional inspiration. They will not necessarily be linked the whatever movie or game they came from, this is purely emotional and inspirational!
I encourage anyone who wants to explore this to join! The medium is up to you, the point is to let your creativity take hold. You can ask for the list I've chosen or make up your own composer list and update your art as frequently as possible. I'm challenging myself to put out a painting every two weeks according to work and school. If you are interested in joining in, let me know and maybe we can compare pieces for critique!
I'll tag a few people I know, but everyone is welcome to join in.
See you in a couple of weeks!
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Some Tag Thing
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Difficulties
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Jeez, It doesn't feel like it's been this long since I've posted a journal but I guess 2012 is a long ways behind us now.
What can I say? My life has literally changed dramatically, and my art, thoughts, and emotions have been seriously affected. Only a couple deviants I know are really up to date with everything.
My mom passed away last Summer of Lung Cancer, officially. I attribute her death to medical incompetence, as a procedure was done on her that was necessary, but the people involved weren't qualified to do anything so major and then send her home. She died from a set of infections following that, and given her already weaken immune system, she barely stood a chance. It took her 11 days to die in a hospital bed far away from home. Thank God Dad and I were able to be with her. I attempted to work again shortly after that, since I took a term off of school to be with my father. Besides mom passing a few weeks before, working was one of the worse experiences I ever had. I asn't ready, and it the combination has affected my self esteem, self image, confidence, everything. I can't look in the mirror half the time without seeing mom now, and it's both a blessing and a curse. Little more than a year later I can still barely think about her, say her name, or even write this journal without choking up.
With that said, My art has been affected. It's harder to do, darker (minus what's assigned at school), and shakier. I just hope I can begin to improve again. I've started therapy and one thing that was suggested was I speak about mom more often and display my feelings about this more often. Maybe it's a good idea to put this out to the public, though only a few may read (or even care) about it. I thank school for giving me subject matter to work on or I'd have dropped off the site long ago. I began to paint and sing to help me deal with these pent up emotions. Maybe that'll help me through my artist rut.
For anyone who's read this fully, thank you for your time in trying to understand my feelings here, given that I've just emptied my purse in this journal.
P.S. Getting rid of a LOT of Old Art, which has been moved into my Main folder. Don't get attached to the crap lolz
What can I say? My life has literally changed dramatically, and my art, thoughts, and emotions have been seriously affected. Only a couple deviants I know are really up to date with everything.
My mom passed away last Summer of Lung Cancer, officially. I attribute her death to medical incompetence, as a procedure was done on her that was necessary, but the people involved weren't qualified to do anything so major and then send her home. She died from a set of infections following that, and given her already weaken immune system, she barely stood a chance. It took her 11 days to die in a hospital bed far away from home. Thank God Dad and I were able to be with her. I attempted to work again shortly after that, since I took a term off of school to be with my father. Besides mom passing a few weeks before, working was one of the worse experiences I ever had. I asn't ready, and it the combination has affected my self esteem, self image, confidence, everything. I can't look in the mirror half the time without seeing mom now, and it's both a blessing and a curse. Little more than a year later I can still barely think about her, say her name, or even write this journal without choking up.
With that said, My art has been affected. It's harder to do, darker (minus what's assigned at school), and shakier. I just hope I can begin to improve again. I've started therapy and one thing that was suggested was I speak about mom more often and display my feelings about this more often. Maybe it's a good idea to put this out to the public, though only a few may read (or even care) about it. I thank school for giving me subject matter to work on or I'd have dropped off the site long ago. I began to paint and sing to help me deal with these pent up emotions. Maybe that'll help me through my artist rut.
For anyone who's read this fully, thank you for your time in trying to understand my feelings here, given that I've just emptied my purse in this journal.
P.S. Getting rid of a LOT of Old Art, which has been moved into my Main folder. Don't get attached to the crap lolz
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